So I checked out a picture of a girl on facebook that my boyfriend says is pudgy, and shes skinnier than me!! What the hell does he think of me????? I know I have a bit more meat on my bones than some girls, but I didn't think I was that big. When I'm not trying to impress him or get a compliment, I feel fine about myself, even glad I'm a bit bigger, because it means I am stronger, better suited to survive and take care of myself. I never felt like I needed a man to make me feel safe, but it's something he really wants his girlfriend to feel
Also, apparently I'm an average 8/10 for sex, but all his previous girls have been about 8/10 too!!! Everyone knows that in a relationship, you stroke your partner's ego, even if it's a little white lie. I did it for him! I compliment and stroke his ego so much, but whenever I need a compliment or am having a down day on myself, he pokes fun at me. I know it's a joke, but it feels like I never hear anything positive about me from him these days.
We've been having some bumps in our relationship path, and when I hear things like that, I can't help but think "what if he finds someone skinnier, cuter, smaller, and above all, there in the same city as him, never mind on the same continent. He has a close girl friend that he loves hanging out with and going drinking with. He says he isn't attracted to her, but I still worry. And now there is another girl friend of his in his area that invited him to BALLROOM DANCING!!!! This is the girl he said he didn't find attractive because she is pudgy. He says he wants to go learn, so I made the argument that it's something I want to learn with him, but he doesn't see it as a big deal. I don't feel like I'm being over-sensitive, but so many things he says and does these days that hurt my feelings.
I just don't know...
