Stating the Freaking Obvious

Look, I can see from my poor score that I am not playing the game very well. I don't need you pointing it out after every fucking play. Thank you.

Reaching My Limit

The ex still doesnt know what he wants, and so I'm stuck here, not getting a permanent job in case he decides one thing, and finding places that are month to month so I can leave if I need to, and he's not considering me into any of his plans at all. I'm getting so sick of it!


Apparently he thinks we have no banter and we fight too much, but we really hadn't fought much at all before he disappeared a few days ago when he was "busy" and couldn't find a spare fucking second to drop me a quick email from his smartphone to let me know he wouldn't be on for a week, when I was sitting there waiting for him to come online so we could talk about what I'm going to do in the near future and how that's going to affect us.


And now, it sounds like he thinks we don't even have a future, and all that stuff he said when he was here was complete bullshit. So we are still stalled, and my life is still on pause. Nothing is permanent, nothing is concrete.


Well, screw him then. If he doesn't want this fantastic woman in his life, then he can just go fuck himself.


I have to start moving on with my life. Won't get signed into a contract yet, probably, if I can even get a job like that, and definitely won't get tied into a year lease. Maybe a 6 month lease, but for sure not a whole year.


There's also the possibility of moving home to save up money, so when life decides to happen, I'll be prepared for it. It's been a long time since I've actually had any money in the bank.

Roommates and Moving

My lease is up at the end of the month, so I've been looking for places today. Emailed a bunch, and got a few responses. Two sound really sketchy, they say they have the keys with them in London (consequently they are both in London) and need someone to "take good care" of their apartment, which one of them inherited from their dead dad. So noooooo on those ones. I have one viewing tomorrow, meeting the couple that live there, and maybe that will be it. But I'm not putting too much stock in it, as everyone else I talk to has had to see quite a few places before they find one they like with people they can stand. I'm really hoping that this place isn't a basement shithole like this one. I love my roommate, but I can't stand this place! It's too short, the shower sucks, the kitchen is laughable and it's freezing. The only thing I like about it is the ledge around the bedroom is kinda funky. That is literally it.


Speaking of roommates, I was thinking about sex in a cohabitation situation. My roommate assures me that her and her boyfriend aren't having sex while I'm there, not that I would care one way or another, I say have at it! But these two seem like such a sexless old married couple already, and they aren't even married yet! I just want to shake her and say "Jump his bones!" Poor girl. They're pretty religious (I think), so buttoned down and proper. If I had a boy in my bed, you can guarantee we would be getting it on at all hours of the day and night.


I wonder if my new roommates will be like that, or just get it on whenever they want, and at what volume... My roommates one summer didn't know that I stay up really late, and I heard them having what sounded like really great sex. It kind of turned me on! It's like live porn, but the nice kind, with an actual couple.