So, I have been officially single for 3 months now, all of summer, and didn't really have a summer romance. Too much with the still talking to the ex, who SURPRISE! came over to try and work things out. It was actually really nice, most of the time. There were a few tense, several hour long deep conversations about what was wrong with our relationship, etc.
So now he's back at home, and we still talk almost every day, back into the routine of minor arguments and chilling, sharing jokes (inside and new), and being each other's main source of support (only sure of that on my end, but I think it's mutual...).
Now I'm going to say something crazy.
I want to be with him.
Yea, that's what my friends said! It's crazy! Do you remember all the reasons you ended it?? Do you remember being miserable all that time you guys were on a break, trying to move on? Why would you go and undo all that work? What about all the other fish in the sea, one of which you've already sampled??
The thing is, we has such amazing chemistry, and the sex is incredible (a few things to teach him, but I think we can work on it, even though, you know guys, so sensitive about being told they can't do something quite right). And we have 3 years of history, making it through hard times, and sharing amazing experiences that I doubt I would have with another guy.
So now, I have 2 months left on my lease, and he wants to "just see how things go, and how we get along". I don't have time for this shit! I either need to keep looking for a permanent job, and a new place (because I am not spending another year in this shithole), or need to look into moving over there, and getting my other stuff back home.
He really needs to get his ass in gear.
