The ex still doesnt know what he wants, and so I'm stuck here, not getting a permanent job in case he decides one thing, and finding places that are month to month so I can leave if I need to, and he's not considering me into any of his plans at all. I'm getting so sick of it!
Apparently he thinks we have no banter and we fight too much, but we really hadn't fought much at all before he disappeared a few days ago when he was "busy" and couldn't find a spare fucking second to drop me a quick email from his smartphone to let me know he wouldn't be on for a week, when I was sitting there waiting for him to come online so we could talk about what I'm going to do in the near future and how that's going to affect us.
And now, it sounds like he thinks we don't even have a future, and all that stuff he said when he was here was complete bullshit. So we are still stalled, and my life is still on pause. Nothing is permanent, nothing is concrete.
Well, screw him then. If he doesn't want this fantastic woman in his life, then he can just go fuck himself.
I have to start moving on with my life. Won't get signed into a contract yet, probably, if I can even get a job like that, and definitely won't get tied into a year lease. Maybe a 6 month lease, but for sure not a whole year.
There's also the possibility of moving home to save up money, so when life decides to happen, I'll be prepared for it. It's been a long time since I've actually had any money in the bank.
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