Tense

It's been a bit tense since... well, since I got here really. We have a couple good days, cuddly, joking, happy, then something happens, always MY fault, just btw, and then he doesn't want to talk to me. Is it just me, or does he need to chill the fuck out, because it's always him getting in a fit over something tiny that I do, and when I get a little peeved at him, I'm overreacting and he gets pissy! WTF??? It doesn't feel like an equal relationship some times. He has anger problems, something he admitted he wanted to look in to anger management classes for, but when I remind him of that, he says he didn't and gets mad at me. It's a no-win situation and it is my relationship. He doesn't seem to get that I have no friends here, and when I explain why I tell someone something slightly personal, he gets angry and then says I should talk to him about it, but if I had talked to him about it initially, he would just get mad at me feeling that way!! I've tried talking to him about stuff that bothers me, but he just twists it around to make it seem like I'm overreacting or don't understand or something, but it's the way I feel! Not something that he can have an opinion on! They are MY fucking feelings! 

And every time I have a conversation with someone, he needs to know exactly what every one said. When I text someone, he needs to read it and analyze it and tell me how to say things. It's really starting to piss me off and makes me not want to talk to him or tell him what happens in my life. That's not a good way to feel about a partner. Is it just me overreacting again, or is he being slightly controlling? I don't know what to do. I don't know if I want to keep trying to talk to him about all this. It's exhausting.

There's also the issue I have with being very insecure about him and other girls. It stems from all the girls he got with while traveling, and them keeping in touch with him. It didn't help that when we weren't official, but had the exact same relationship we have now, he made out with girls in bars. He hasn't told me an exact number, but said it was around 20. That bugs the hell out of me, but he says I have no right to be bothered by anything in the past or when we weren't official. This is sounding like a previous post, so I'll move on to PHOTO TIME :)

My dreams...

One way out...

Or

I guess we'll see when I get my own place, but it's not a reassuring thing when we can't live together without wanting to kill each other every couple of days. I have trouble these days seeing the future... it's scary.